Within the 10 day period of Rosh Hashanah, Jews are asked around the world to reflect upon repentance. It is a powerful thing to make amends, to forgive. But first, I believe, it begins with the humility to honestly admit our shortcomings, own them, and let that be O. K. It means looking “inside” ourselves, evaluating what is working, what was a mistake, what could be better. To me, failure is the teacher. Success comes from the perseverance to continue and the humility to accept that you can do better without pointing fingers, without judgment, without shaming and blaming.
Some decisions feel right at the time, and hindsight is our best teacher. I come from trust and I am adventurous. Many times, my impetuous behavior got me in musky waters. I could have walked away, blamed others, but thank God, I had the humility to accept that I messed up, was depressed about it, until it I realized that wasn’t going to solve the problem. I had to find a solution and know that I wouldn’t do that again.
It takes courage to face reality and admit to yourself that I am settling, that the relationship is not working, the investment isn’t sound, that I am overwhelmed, that I am overreacting. I had to look at shortcomings ie, procrastination, lack of focus, being too emotional or too scared, and the big one, not pausing to take the time to do the homework needed before making important decisions.
Bit by bit, new behaviors got me to a better place. Humility gave you the inner peace to know that it will all work out, that I don’t need to know all the answers. I don’t need to be perfect. It is the”human factor” that God wants us to pray and meditate about. We are all “humans having a spiritual experience on this Earth” is how Ms. Oprah so aptly says it. All God asks of us is to suit up and show up and do the best I can every day.
So here’s to having the humility to be repentive, and to have it be O. K.